Meow meow,
So good news, I got funding to go abroad next. Its just one step closer to leaving ole America for the land of new opportunity. The only thing that is separating me from the land of my ancestors is 1. Finals and projects, and 2. I-Core, then its off to Shanghai and who knows some in country traveling?
I also got a position at my Chinese program, as a program assistant I believe. I'll be in Bloomington spending my entire summer going to school and working. Fun Fun.
So off on a tangent...
How is it that someone who says one thing and decides one something, trying to find the "middle road," can just switch gears and do something completely unpredictable. I guess it my fault for not seeing it earlier. I should have gotten out while I had the upper hand, but how she draws me back is completely unknown to me. Maybe it pretending to be vulnerable and needing me. I think its bull, she's obviously really good with her words and even better actor.
I just can't comprehend how twisted and mess up has to be to realize how much someone cares for you, but you just throw it away like its nothing. Its like a love value-added chain, but not the good kind. I'm at the end, so I'm the one who gets hurt the most? I think I'll cut my losses now, so I think I'm done now. This is my proof and evidence that I'm done.
Yeah, that's what's been going lately in my life.
-MC
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